I was excited to start the week and dress in something other than tights and a t-shirt. Last week’s treatment was the toughest by far, and I felt like the fog from it was finally lifting. I looked forward to going to work and getting my mind on something else. First, though, was a visit to the doctor. My blood work was good but it looks like I will not be getting a break between treatments as I had originally thought. My last hard chemo will be next week followed by a week off then I’ll start my weekly 12 rounds of chemo. After those fun weeks, it’s 6 to 7 weeks of radiation.

All of this swam around in my head but it was off to work. I have tried to think one step or one treatment ahead but it can be hard. Especially when you are a planner by nature. Work was good except the Excel spreadsheet I had been hard at work on didn’t save. I finally gave in and left. And did I mention the crack in my phone decided to affect my entire screen?

By far the highlight of today after accepting my new year outlook, letting go that sometimes Microsoft sucks and the fact that I’ve got to be more careful with my phone, was bath time with Anderson. Bath time is a big deal as it requires numerous toys including Iron Man and the Hulk. As they tower over the bath tub, they remind me of two important truths- it is important what we do when we are upset (Hulk) and what can be accomplished with great will and determination (Iron Man).

I remind myself that even though this year is going to be probably one of my difficult is that I will do it. It will be hard but I will do it. There is no need to spend time being upset. In the meantime, I’ll spend more time worrying about what toys I need to put in the bathtub to make my 2 -year- old happy. Kids are a blessing.

Thanks Iron Man and Hulk.